Okay megan. Some weeks I don't comment at all, other weeks you really drag a long letter out of me. But this one will be short.
So you curse and swear? Big deal. Not likely very many thin-skinned fundamentalist christians, are going to be reading your comments anyway. So fuck them. If I may put on their attitude:
"So you swear a lot. Sure, I'm offended! What else have you got?"
Seriously Megan, we love you. And look forward to this every Friday.
Girlfriend, you cast a WordSpell on yourself and it fucking WORKED! And you possibly didn't even know it.
Did you know that there are many disputed origins for the word "cunt"...some say it comes from Latin "cunnes"...or perhaps you have "descensus in cuniculi cavum" descended into the rabbit hole of the gash in the earth known as Cunt. A wise shaman once told me that the word cunt actually originates from before Sanskrit, and it means "a gash in the earth". Given that Earth is our Divine Mother, and Her gash would be any wedge (also a translation for cunt found on the interwebs) where she swallows up a seed so that she may grow that seed into a flourishing plant.
I ramble. My point is, in your rant about the c-word in the beginning, you evoked the energy of the Divine Mother and her ultimate role as the ultimate Nurturer and Creator. When you evoked this divine energy, you awoke something in yourself that is connected to Her Divine Femininity. You planted the seed inside yourself and it took just 48 hours, two days to germanate and grow into the other C-word... Confidence.
Cuz Mother Earth is just that, always confident. She knows her place. .She knows her role and damnit, she owns it. You connected with her.
You said it yourself
"And yet it ripped me open and violently tore out my pain, shoving it in my face, demanding I see for myself what I’d buried in the deepest center of my being."
just as a gash in the earth is a wedge we dig to plant a seed, you allowed yourself, like Mother Earth to be gashed open wide and swallowed up the seed to the center of your being and let it GROW into the Confidence that you are!
I'm so excited as I type this and read and re-read your words here. Excited for you to claim this ownership of the divine feminine inside you.
Cunt means Gash in the Earth, and a gash in the earth is a place where we plant and seed to grow into something that flourishes and beautifies and nurtures and nourishes the rest of the world.
Wow………….. I’m sitting here with chills as I re-read your words. 🥹 Teri Leigh you are just incredible. I’m so humbled that you would take the time to share all of this beautiful goodness with me. 🥹
This is so powerful….. Mother Earth is so magical. How everything unfolded is magical even though it ripped me open in the process…. a beautiful confidence was planted. 😭🥹🙏 Damn, I’m still marinating in everything you wrote.
Thank you so much for being you, I love you too!!!
I want you to do the big reveal on what hit you hard that affected you so badly?
Fuck me, I'm dying to know why, and I live in Australia, so I need to fucking wait until you've slept overnight and I've slept overnight to find out what fucking happened.
Then, oh authentic one, you might not reply at all which would really fuck me up royally. Then, where the fuck would I be?
You could be what in Oz we call...a right can't!
But, I'm hoping you'll be a cute instead and fucking spill the beans on what brought about the big fucking change.
This gratuitous fucking county swearing is really liberating, isn't it.
I had a county weekend, which should have been brilliant, but ended with me fighting with my entire family over putting down coasters on the coffee table, so the chill drips down the fucking bottles of cider, or beer, don't ruin the cherry wood with white rings.
Now, Substack World, I ask you, was that fucking insignificant enough to give myself a fucking sore throat from. (Too much yelling!) Was fucking coasters really a bridge that was worth dying on? Fuck no! So I was feeling a bit down about myself for ruining Sunday by screaming myself hoarse re my fam not putting down coasters, just before I read your sweaty newsletters.
And, you know what. After writing out so many fucks and a central or two, I feel a bit better.
SWEARING IS FUCKING CATHARTIC!
Who knew,eh?
Anyway, I hope you're not offended as none of the aforementioned fucks were directed at you.
Thanks for reading my fucking rant. Please spill the juice. And lastly, anyone who can use that many cunts in a post sounds pretty fucking confident to me.
I THOROUGHLY enjoyed the journey of reading your comment!!! 😂🙏
I’ve never heard of “a right can’t” but I love it. 🤣
So, what hit me so hard, it’s a bit tender of a topic for me and I’m going to be writing about it in a future newsletter! I think it will be in 2 weeks. 🥹♥️ So, stay tuned!! 🙏
And, goodness, swearing IS sooooo cathartic right?! I’m so glad you could get some swearing catharsis in, and I hope no more family fights over the coasters. ♥️
The deeply philosophical question of our time is whether the short “c-word” is only available to be used by females. Is it as inappropriate for a male to use it as it is for a white person to use the “n-word”? Because black people seem to be free to call each other “n-word” all the time, but my use of it could be sufficient grounds for a justified stabbing or worse.
I know in my own situation use of that “c-word” around females is as close as I’ve ever come to attempted suicide.
Far as general cussing is concerned, you sure as Hell ain’t got a fucking THING on me.
😂 yeahhhhhh, context can definitely vary! We don’t want you to be suicided over it!! 😂 For me personally, it depends on the nature of my relationship/intent if someone is swearing **at** me. Otherwise, if it’s just good natured self expression 100% bring it. No offense at all on my part 😂
Agreed. No offense intended in anything I say (OK, *usually* not intended…). But I learned from my New Jersey Irish relatives to say what I had to say in as few words as possible. And most of the time, that involves colorful language.
I do try not to use it around kids, and would advise guys to NEVER use the “short c” word around women. But when you smack your thumb with a hammer, the words just flow out of you.
Therese, it wouldn’t matter. My New Jersey Irish heritage would never permit euphemisms. It’s hard enough to avoid using those magic words when I’m NOT hurting, as in “every 4th word, all of the time”.
I can swear with the best of you. The thing that's most important to me, is are you swearing appropriately! ?
I believe the answer is fuck yeah, you are. So I'm cool with it.
The entire confidence thing boils down to just a couple of simple things in my humble opinion. Authenticity, yes. A deep knowing of yourself (the good bad and worse), acceptance of that, and with that knowing comes possibly the last fuck you'll ever give. In other words. I know I'm a, b, c, and a little bit of R and X, and I'm good with it. Even if I'm not on a certain day, I'll come back around. I know who I am. I love and accept myself entirely. Or I hate myself today for that one thing, but I'm still out here kicking ass and taking names. That's known as radical self-acceptance. That's confidence. Love, Virg
Thank you for sharing your beautiful reflections, Virg!!! 🥹 YES to radical self acceptance. Even on the days when we don’t particularly like ourselves. THAT is powerful AF. I adore this beautiful reminder! ♥️♥️♥️
M!! Did we just become best friends?!?! I SWEAR to God... SWEAR TO GOD! I literally had a whole monologue in my head TWO days ago about how Cunt is such a fun word to say. It hits just right in high stress situations. It's a tad uncomfortable when you let it slip under your breath while at work....but whatever!
Emotions can be cunty. They seduce you one day, wine and dine you the next, and blindside you by being the most unprovoked biggest bitch (fine, cunt) the following day.
I adore your authenticity and quite frankly, your bravery. I can't stress enough how much I appreciate being privvy to your personal journey. It's honestly helped me to be brave in my own quest of staying true to who I am and in my transformation of becoming an even better version of me. 🙂
Keep being your unapologetic awesome self. The world needs more spirits like you in it.
I love your connecting confidence to authenticity. I think that’s gonna help me! I never feel confident, but I know I’m a million percent authentic (also bad at math) so that must mean I actually AM confident! Fuck yeah!
You never cease to make me grin and/or chuckle julie!!! 😂 I am also bad at math, but I do know I’m a million percent authentic, too. 🥹 FUCK YEAH FOR US BEING AUTHENTICALLY CONFIDENT!!!
Hahahahahahahaha omg. Best introduction to a newsletter ever!! I was dying with all the swearing and I absolutely loved how the main point and the actual C-word had absolutely nothing to do with the swearing. Oh god 🤣 still dying from how amusing that was.🤣🤣
Girl. Can I just say, reading this newsletter in particular has actually helped inspire more confidence in me for myself. I do very much relate to how your brain thinks and communicates, and I so enjoy reading your writing. And it was like… oh shit. If I feel that way about her writing, then that must mean that it’s possible other people could feel that way about mine.
Anyway… I am curious as to what happened in those days in between writing?! 👀 Is that something you will share?
Natalie!!! Thank you for being here and all the words you wrote!!!!! I’m sooooooo glad I could make you laugh with that introduction!!!! Literally I am BEAMING and chuckling right now 😂🙏😂🙏
I’m so incredibly honored that I can hold up a mirror for yourself, and inspire you to let more and all the you show up in your writing! 🥹🙏🫶
Seriously have all the warm fuzzies right now!!!
And— I think I’m going to share the “back story” on what happened two newsletters from now (this Friday will be the lite shame sammie and then I think the next one I will share ♥️)
OMG Megan! The word art that you paint is stunning!!! Fucking stunning 🐱
It's been a while since I read anyone's pub b/c I've focused on what I love doing -- being a badass Unmuffled MindShift Mechanic -- and that's in 12 hours.
The clocks ticking and I've got to get back to sleep after letting the dogs out (damn that ear worm never stops 🤪)
Let me close as I give you the biggest soul soothing hug EVER and say...
I'm ashamed my writing has been cuntless. So sad. So sorry.
But you have given me the courage to snack endlessly on shame sammy and have a picnic as I unpack The Fifty Shades of Donna.
I'm more fuckin swearier than you! What you may be describing is something I said to everybody about some situation in my life some time ago, I was sick to death of being sick to death, endless repetitive bollocks, so one day I snapped out of it, and nobody can shut me up, coz I don't give a shit, I say exactly what I want, when I want, when appropriate, cough splutter, so take that you fucking cunt ♥️ 😅
Ha! I think you got there in the end. Through all the feels. So I just want to validate the NOT FAKING it thing. Because the minute you write you are a writer. That’s REAL. There’s no definition “you are only a writer once you make x dollars a year at writing”. What kind of bullshit would that be? If you do it then you are someone who does it. There’s no FAKE involved.
So I’m a writer and artist and business owner and mother and dancer and if some of those make $0 doesn’t change squat.
Okay megan. Some weeks I don't comment at all, other weeks you really drag a long letter out of me. But this one will be short.
So you curse and swear? Big deal. Not likely very many thin-skinned fundamentalist christians, are going to be reading your comments anyway. So fuck them. If I may put on their attitude:
"So you swear a lot. Sure, I'm offended! What else have you got?"
Seriously Megan, we love you. And look forward to this every Friday.
Don't let us down!
🥹 Thank you so much for being here and the support!!! “What else have you got” hell yeah. 🙏
Girlfriend, you cast a WordSpell on yourself and it fucking WORKED! And you possibly didn't even know it.
Did you know that there are many disputed origins for the word "cunt"...some say it comes from Latin "cunnes"...or perhaps you have "descensus in cuniculi cavum" descended into the rabbit hole of the gash in the earth known as Cunt. A wise shaman once told me that the word cunt actually originates from before Sanskrit, and it means "a gash in the earth". Given that Earth is our Divine Mother, and Her gash would be any wedge (also a translation for cunt found on the interwebs) where she swallows up a seed so that she may grow that seed into a flourishing plant.
I ramble. My point is, in your rant about the c-word in the beginning, you evoked the energy of the Divine Mother and her ultimate role as the ultimate Nurturer and Creator. When you evoked this divine energy, you awoke something in yourself that is connected to Her Divine Femininity. You planted the seed inside yourself and it took just 48 hours, two days to germanate and grow into the other C-word... Confidence.
Cuz Mother Earth is just that, always confident. She knows her place. .She knows her role and damnit, she owns it. You connected with her.
You said it yourself
"And yet it ripped me open and violently tore out my pain, shoving it in my face, demanding I see for myself what I’d buried in the deepest center of my being."
just as a gash in the earth is a wedge we dig to plant a seed, you allowed yourself, like Mother Earth to be gashed open wide and swallowed up the seed to the center of your being and let it GROW into the Confidence that you are!
I'm so excited as I type this and read and re-read your words here. Excited for you to claim this ownership of the divine feminine inside you.
Cunt means Gash in the Earth, and a gash in the earth is a place where we plant and seed to grow into something that flourishes and beautifies and nurtures and nourishes the rest of the world.
You did it girlfriend! I just love you!!!!
Wow………….. I’m sitting here with chills as I re-read your words. 🥹 Teri Leigh you are just incredible. I’m so humbled that you would take the time to share all of this beautiful goodness with me. 🥹
This is so powerful….. Mother Earth is so magical. How everything unfolded is magical even though it ripped me open in the process…. a beautiful confidence was planted. 😭🥹🙏 Damn, I’m still marinating in everything you wrote.
Thank you so much for being you, I love you too!!!
♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
I had big time chills the whole time I read your post. and I read it many times. I could feel the word-spell with every syllable!!!
That’s… all the feels!!! And I get chills from reading your words right now, too. 🥹
I want you to do the big reveal on what hit you hard that affected you so badly?
Fuck me, I'm dying to know why, and I live in Australia, so I need to fucking wait until you've slept overnight and I've slept overnight to find out what fucking happened.
Then, oh authentic one, you might not reply at all which would really fuck me up royally. Then, where the fuck would I be?
You could be what in Oz we call...a right can't!
But, I'm hoping you'll be a cute instead and fucking spill the beans on what brought about the big fucking change.
This gratuitous fucking county swearing is really liberating, isn't it.
I had a county weekend, which should have been brilliant, but ended with me fighting with my entire family over putting down coasters on the coffee table, so the chill drips down the fucking bottles of cider, or beer, don't ruin the cherry wood with white rings.
Now, Substack World, I ask you, was that fucking insignificant enough to give myself a fucking sore throat from. (Too much yelling!) Was fucking coasters really a bridge that was worth dying on? Fuck no! So I was feeling a bit down about myself for ruining Sunday by screaming myself hoarse re my fam not putting down coasters, just before I read your sweaty newsletters.
And, you know what. After writing out so many fucks and a central or two, I feel a bit better.
SWEARING IS FUCKING CATHARTIC!
Who knew,eh?
Anyway, I hope you're not offended as none of the aforementioned fucks were directed at you.
Thanks for reading my fucking rant. Please spill the juice. And lastly, anyone who can use that many cunts in a post sounds pretty fucking confident to me.
But honestly, what the fuck would I know.
I THOROUGHLY enjoyed the journey of reading your comment!!! 😂🙏
I’ve never heard of “a right can’t” but I love it. 🤣
So, what hit me so hard, it’s a bit tender of a topic for me and I’m going to be writing about it in a future newsletter! I think it will be in 2 weeks. 🥹♥️ So, stay tuned!! 🙏
And, goodness, swearing IS sooooo cathartic right?! I’m so glad you could get some swearing catharsis in, and I hope no more family fights over the coasters. ♥️
Oh, no, I'm hanging on by my fingernails here.
Do I have to wait so long, Megan?
A little hint?
A word?
A tempter?
God have mercy on me.
I. WANT. TO. KNOW. NOW.
**hands you some extra strength duct tape to get through until next week** 😂
What I will say is… My traumatic past smacked me in my face and... god that bitch smacked hard. And yet… it has a beautiful silver lining to it.
And that is all I will say for now until next week… 🫶
What a stunning letter!! I loved every cunty moment of this and your PIVOT after a moment with all the feels!!
We feel your authenticity out here- it’s why we flock over, time and time again!! ❤️
P.s. I have a letter coming out Tuesday about yet ANOTHER C word to add to our cunty list!
Xx
I just adore you!!!! And, can I just say it made me so happy to see a cunt/cunty fly in your comment? 🥹♥️
& YAY! I can’t wait to read the latest newsletter!!!! ✨
The deeply philosophical question of our time is whether the short “c-word” is only available to be used by females. Is it as inappropriate for a male to use it as it is for a white person to use the “n-word”? Because black people seem to be free to call each other “n-word” all the time, but my use of it could be sufficient grounds for a justified stabbing or worse.
I know in my own situation use of that “c-word” around females is as close as I’ve ever come to attempted suicide.
Far as general cussing is concerned, you sure as Hell ain’t got a fucking THING on me.
😂 yeahhhhhh, context can definitely vary! We don’t want you to be suicided over it!! 😂 For me personally, it depends on the nature of my relationship/intent if someone is swearing **at** me. Otherwise, if it’s just good natured self expression 100% bring it. No offense at all on my part 😂
Agreed. No offense intended in anything I say (OK, *usually* not intended…). But I learned from my New Jersey Irish relatives to say what I had to say in as few words as possible. And most of the time, that involves colorful language.
I do try not to use it around kids, and would advise guys to NEVER use the “short c” word around women. But when you smack your thumb with a hammer, the words just flow out of you.
Yes to all the above!!! 😂
Lou, absolutely, when your in pain, you can't just yell out... FIRETRUCK OR CUNTRY AS IF YOU WERE INTEDING TO SAY COUNTRY.
ONLY AUTHENTIC CURSES AND SWEARS APPLY WHEN YOU HURT YOURSELF.
Therese, it wouldn’t matter. My New Jersey Irish heritage would never permit euphemisms. It’s hard enough to avoid using those magic words when I’m NOT hurting, as in “every 4th word, all of the time”.
Hi Megan,
I can swear with the best of you. The thing that's most important to me, is are you swearing appropriately! ?
I believe the answer is fuck yeah, you are. So I'm cool with it.
The entire confidence thing boils down to just a couple of simple things in my humble opinion. Authenticity, yes. A deep knowing of yourself (the good bad and worse), acceptance of that, and with that knowing comes possibly the last fuck you'll ever give. In other words. I know I'm a, b, c, and a little bit of R and X, and I'm good with it. Even if I'm not on a certain day, I'll come back around. I know who I am. I love and accept myself entirely. Or I hate myself today for that one thing, but I'm still out here kicking ass and taking names. That's known as radical self-acceptance. That's confidence. Love, Virg
Thank you for sharing your beautiful reflections, Virg!!! 🥹 YES to radical self acceptance. Even on the days when we don’t particularly like ourselves. THAT is powerful AF. I adore this beautiful reminder! ♥️♥️♥️
So whatever hit you like a ton of bricks, you handle it well. You are as authentic AF.
I love that about you…how on earth you come up with phrases that still stick with me…..
I’m going to grab it with both hands and a toe, and remember that it’s ok…..wow
Writing so good I get shivers sometimes…hugs to you
Write on dear one,Di
Oh Di, thank you oh so much for your words, I have happy shivers right now. 🥹🙏 Hugs to you!
M!! Did we just become best friends?!?! I SWEAR to God... SWEAR TO GOD! I literally had a whole monologue in my head TWO days ago about how Cunt is such a fun word to say. It hits just right in high stress situations. It's a tad uncomfortable when you let it slip under your breath while at work....but whatever!
Emotions can be cunty. They seduce you one day, wine and dine you the next, and blindside you by being the most unprovoked biggest bitch (fine, cunt) the following day.
I adore your authenticity and quite frankly, your bravery. I can't stress enough how much I appreciate being privvy to your personal journey. It's honestly helped me to be brave in my own quest of staying true to who I am and in my transformation of becoming an even better version of me. 🙂
Keep being your unapologetic awesome self. The world needs more spirits like you in it.
!!!!! Totally became best friends! A monologue about how Cunt is such a fun word to say, I fucking love that so much!!! 😂😂😂😂
Oh lord, that would be a tad uncomfortable, yet epic, to let slip at work. Erm, oops? 😂
Thank you so very much for being here and sharing all the supportive thoughts, truly means so much. 🥹🙏♥️
I had the worst cunt fucking day yesterday, still having it. Reading this was just what the doctor fucking ordered!
Cunts, fucking cunts, both of them!
End Transmission
Thanks
It’s official, I really like you!!! 😂 So sorry you had a cunty ass day, and, so happy my cunty newsletter could cheer you up a bit!!! 🥹
End Transmission 🖤 ← Never used that and i fucking love it 😂
😂 I have my moments
I love your connecting confidence to authenticity. I think that’s gonna help me! I never feel confident, but I know I’m a million percent authentic (also bad at math) so that must mean I actually AM confident! Fuck yeah!
You never cease to make me grin and/or chuckle julie!!! 😂 I am also bad at math, but I do know I’m a million percent authentic, too. 🥹 FUCK YEAH FOR US BEING AUTHENTICALLY CONFIDENT!!!
Hahahahahahahaha omg. Best introduction to a newsletter ever!! I was dying with all the swearing and I absolutely loved how the main point and the actual C-word had absolutely nothing to do with the swearing. Oh god 🤣 still dying from how amusing that was.🤣🤣
Girl. Can I just say, reading this newsletter in particular has actually helped inspire more confidence in me for myself. I do very much relate to how your brain thinks and communicates, and I so enjoy reading your writing. And it was like… oh shit. If I feel that way about her writing, then that must mean that it’s possible other people could feel that way about mine.
Anyway… I am curious as to what happened in those days in between writing?! 👀 Is that something you will share?
Natalie!!! Thank you for being here and all the words you wrote!!!!! I’m sooooooo glad I could make you laugh with that introduction!!!! Literally I am BEAMING and chuckling right now 😂🙏😂🙏
I’m so incredibly honored that I can hold up a mirror for yourself, and inspire you to let more and all the you show up in your writing! 🥹🙏🫶
Seriously have all the warm fuzzies right now!!!
And— I think I’m going to share the “back story” on what happened two newsletters from now (this Friday will be the lite shame sammie and then I think the next one I will share ♥️)
Oh good, I look forward to it! 🤓
Yay 🥹🙏
I cunting love this post! 😂👏
Hahaha yassss!!! 😂😍🙏
OMG Megan! The word art that you paint is stunning!!! Fucking stunning 🐱
It's been a while since I read anyone's pub b/c I've focused on what I love doing -- being a badass Unmuffled MindShift Mechanic -- and that's in 12 hours.
The clocks ticking and I've got to get back to sleep after letting the dogs out (damn that ear worm never stops 🤪)
Let me close as I give you the biggest soul soothing hug EVER and say...
I'm ashamed my writing has been cuntless. So sad. So sorry.
But you have given me the courage to snack endlessly on shame sammy and have a picnic as I unpack The Fifty Shades of Donna.
Do I dare continue?
I adore you more than I can express 💜
!!!!!!!!!!!! Goodness you know how to bring the biggest grins to my face!!! Thank you SO much for your hugs and words.
And… BRING ON THE FIFTY SHADES OF DONNA!!!
And, I wanna join that picnic. Sounds FUN!!!
Okay then. I will find a way to integrate Poker's Life Lessons and Fifty Shades of Donna. Hmm... gotta put on my game face for that LOL
You sexy, big ass, bad ass, CUNT! ❤️
🥹 I LOVE YOU!!!!! Seriously, I’m nearly splitting my facial cheeks from the amount of grinning that’s going on right now. Thank you. ♥️
I'm more fuckin swearier than you! What you may be describing is something I said to everybody about some situation in my life some time ago, I was sick to death of being sick to death, endless repetitive bollocks, so one day I snapped out of it, and nobody can shut me up, coz I don't give a shit, I say exactly what I want, when I want, when appropriate, cough splutter, so take that you fucking cunt ♥️ 😅
Haha yes to expressing ourselves freely! Well, freely and appropriately, but mostly freely!!!
Ha! I think you got there in the end. Through all the feels. So I just want to validate the NOT FAKING it thing. Because the minute you write you are a writer. That’s REAL. There’s no definition “you are only a writer once you make x dollars a year at writing”. What kind of bullshit would that be? If you do it then you are someone who does it. There’s no FAKE involved.
So I’m a writer and artist and business owner and mother and dancer and if some of those make $0 doesn’t change squat.
HA.
Yassssss!!! 🥹🙏 Here’s to the realness of doing the damn thing!!! No fake involved. ♥️♥️♥️♥️