This was such a surprising ride of curiosity and mystery. I am a huge fan of all the kinds of words you want to share- it’s an honor to be let in to this level of truth. Most folx are too afraid to go there themselves, let alone share it with the world. That’s what sets you apart. You have the perfect elemental make up, M. You’re such a shining star.
Megan, your words resonate with a raw honesty that's both unsettling and comforting. That push-pull between the 'illusion of safety' and the yearning for 'freedom' feels so familiar. It's like we're all silently wrestling with these opposing forces, each with its own allure and terror. It's brave to admit the darker side of our desires, even the ones that seem paradoxical. It makes me feel less alone in my own messy contradictions.
Thank you so much for your words! 🥹🙏🖤 “A raw honesty that’s both unsettling and comforting”… yes. That’s exactly the push and pull I felt while publishing. The darker sides of desires can be so punishing when locked up, and soooo free-ing when released. I’m so glad you feel less alone. And in turn, your comment encourages me to keep at it. 🙏
I have a great deal of admiration for people who have gone through hell and emerged. People who have beaten addiction. Beaten cancer. Stared death down and didn’t fucking blink. They are so completely themselves and I admire them with every fibre of my being. I want to be them. But…
🥹💕 Thank you for being here and sharing these words! YES— I, too, want to be someone who is SO COMPLETELY THEMSELF. I’ve been to some pretty dark places, and yet I still struggle with being myself. 😭
Le sigh.
However, sharing my writing is my step to sharing my full self. 💕🙏
Megan Googins methinks!! Pain, pain, pain, and more pain... (pain sandwich?!) It's hard hitting what you wrote for sure. I personally don't like rock bottom. Been there a few times and whilst undoubtedly I've learned and gained (to a degree) from it. I am open to lots of learning and my biggest development has been the past few years when I've been in a fairly good place and it hurts less (obvs). I like the new style too if not so many laughs.
Thank you JFT! 🥹🙏 (pain sandwich… yikes that hits for this one!!!) And that is such an interesting and wise observation… growth and change does not have to come from deep pain. I think sometimes deep pain is the only way to learn some things (well, at least for moi lol), but I’m glad you bring up such a great point. We can grow without the being in hell. 🙏✨🙌
Well. I have looked at her before, and I was dead. I held her hand, but that’s as far as I went. I see her now through narrowed eyes, and she still looks like dead.
Girl... oh, the pain of rock bottom. I know her fairly well if you would like an introduction LOL
This part though...
"People pleasing becomes a luxury you can no longer afford.
I am desperate for the sweet release of rock bottom.
My mind is consumed with rabid thoughts of becoming free."
OOF! This one hit reallll hard.
I loved this piece!
Thank you so much Jen!!!! 🥹🥹🙏
Those lines are some of my favorite too…. it’s not so much rock bottom that I crave, it’s to be FREE from the torture of people pleasing. 😭😭😭
And I hope that you and rock bottom aren’t frequent frequenters!!!!
Damn. I love this. You loving all parts of you helps me to love all parts of me. Thank you for sharing with us
Thank you so much for sharing these exact words with me/this shame sammie community, Sam. They mean so much! 🥹🙏💕
I like all the iterations of Megan. 🤍
Thank you soooo much, friend! 🥹🥹🫶🫶
Resonates deeply. My rock bottom was awful, and saved my life (barely) Grateful for every breath now ❤️🔥
🫶🫶🫶🫶 So grateful you are here. 🥹 Your gratitude is beautiful and I wish you all the best! 🙏
Without going all the way down to the bottom rock, freedom can find you through your raw imaginative writing.
This is beautiful… I have found soooooo much release in my writings over the years. So much pain pours out, and it can transmute. 🥹🫶
This was such a surprising ride of curiosity and mystery. I am a huge fan of all the kinds of words you want to share- it’s an honor to be let in to this level of truth. Most folx are too afraid to go there themselves, let alone share it with the world. That’s what sets you apart. You have the perfect elemental make up, M. You’re such a shining star.
🥹🥹🥹🥹 Thank you for seeing me, and supporting all the layers that belong to this layered soul. I am so thankful for you!!! 🙏💕
Megan, your words resonate with a raw honesty that's both unsettling and comforting. That push-pull between the 'illusion of safety' and the yearning for 'freedom' feels so familiar. It's like we're all silently wrestling with these opposing forces, each with its own allure and terror. It's brave to admit the darker side of our desires, even the ones that seem paradoxical. It makes me feel less alone in my own messy contradictions.
Thank you so much for your words! 🥹🙏🖤 “A raw honesty that’s both unsettling and comforting”… yes. That’s exactly the push and pull I felt while publishing. The darker sides of desires can be so punishing when locked up, and soooo free-ing when released. I’m so glad you feel less alone. And in turn, your comment encourages me to keep at it. 🙏
You should! Always! I love your work 🩵
I loved it can relate to every word. Stay true to yourself always
Thank you so much Vicki! 🥹🥹🥹🙏
I have a great deal of admiration for people who have gone through hell and emerged. People who have beaten addiction. Beaten cancer. Stared death down and didn’t fucking blink. They are so completely themselves and I admire them with every fibre of my being. I want to be them. But…
…that sounds like it, you know… sucks.
🥹💕 Thank you for being here and sharing these words! YES— I, too, want to be someone who is SO COMPLETELY THEMSELF. I’ve been to some pretty dark places, and yet I still struggle with being myself. 😭
Le sigh.
However, sharing my writing is my step to sharing my full self. 💕🙏
Oh my......!
YES-you would also realize that there are layers and layers to who I am....
Yeppers- I too am a real sometimes rotten Vidalia ONION!
both styles are Brillant, Write on dear one.... Di
Thank you so much, Di!!! Your support warms my heart. 🥹🙏
And— YES, I say the more onion layers the more interesting the person. 🫶
Oooooooft. LOVE this and oh so relatable x
🥹🥹🥹 Thank you so much for being here! Thank you for making me feel seen, and I’m so glad you can relate. 🫶🫶🫶
Megan Googins methinks!! Pain, pain, pain, and more pain... (pain sandwich?!) It's hard hitting what you wrote for sure. I personally don't like rock bottom. Been there a few times and whilst undoubtedly I've learned and gained (to a degree) from it. I am open to lots of learning and my biggest development has been the past few years when I've been in a fairly good place and it hurts less (obvs). I like the new style too if not so many laughs.
Thank you JFT! 🥹🙏 (pain sandwich… yikes that hits for this one!!!) And that is such an interesting and wise observation… growth and change does not have to come from deep pain. I think sometimes deep pain is the only way to learn some things (well, at least for moi lol), but I’m glad you bring up such a great point. We can grow without the being in hell. 🙏✨🙌
Everyone works differently for sure, hope your daughters doing OK today.
Thank you so very much. 🙏💛
Well. I have looked at her before, and I was dead. I held her hand, but that’s as far as I went. I see her now through narrowed eyes, and she still looks like dead.
Oooof. She is like death. 🫶🫶🫶
Always captivating and entertaining. This writing has risk and bravery. Good work.
Thank you so very much! 🥹🙏
Uh I totally relate!! Sometimes it feels like it would just be the easier way.
Thank you for being here, Amber! 🫶 So glad you can relate. Here’s to finding freedom to not need the allure of rock bottom anymore. 🥹
Loved this so much 🥺 I'm here for ALL the different writing styles, you're an artist 🤍
🥹🙏 Your words… thank you so much!!! 🥹🫶