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JFT Beach 🇬🇧 🏊 🧘‍♂️'s avatar

Wowzer epic stall... epic humour as distraction... but also most importantly epic courage, vulnerability and truth. Well done for all that but definitely the last bit. Keep on keeping on...as they say the truth shall set you free.

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Camilla Joy's avatar

I'm so proud of you! Secrets are SO HEAVY. The shame only compounds. And... A lot of people in my life will never know the whole truth about me. Not because I'm not willing to tell them, but because they're not safe people to hold the truth.

But I totallllyyyy understand the fear of opening up to therapist! It took me almost a year to let my mask around my depression slip and to ask for help. It was so hard, and I'm sure that's not even close to what you're facing.

You're so strong! It's worth it to set down the weight of some of these secrets in slow, safe ways! You're doing it! You've done SO WELL already!! I'm so proud of you! 🥹🥹🥹

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Chris ❤ 🏳‍🌈 (CDN) he/him 50+'s avatar

Did you actually say Christ's cock? Oi. You are an absolute pleasure to have in my feed. And good on ya for venturing into the mist. Weirdly (and with the very strong caveat that I suspect i absolutely would not like to experience your experience) weirdly I am jealous that you know the root of shame. But I worry my shame is just a character flaw on my behalf. Still. I think recognizing (unburying) is the first step. Telling yourself. And it hopefully gets lighter as you tell trusted people. And shame? Shame is rarely because of your anything but rather the imposition of an act or belief by another (and then how we interpret / retell / process it) anyways sorry for my pseudo babble. I meant to say you are great, I heard the roar, and you have a tribe here.

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Mary Braun Bates, MD's avatar

Congrats for telling your sister.

Here's what I said to myself that helped.

That shit already happened and I already got through it and it can't hurt me any more bc it's done. and in the past.

The other thing that helped me is that I carried a lot of shame around for things that were done *to* me, like the other person should have been ashamed, not me, and yet I was the one carrying the shame. Sorting this out helped me a lot and I stopped feeling quite so shame-y and started feeling like getting on with my life-y.

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Joan V's avatar

Oh you brave brave girl - scream your strength into us still fighting - throw that weight on the floor and walk away 💗

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Brad's avatar

Cheers to Truth telling

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Simon Powell's avatar

Love a ‘stacker who appears to genuinely engage with their readers 😊 read your article as your writing has come to me highly recommended!

Though I would be lying if I said a single word of what you wrote made any sense ❤️

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JMH's avatar

So proud of your courage to share some more truth with one more person… keep going to freedom! :)

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Virginia Curtis's avatar

I am beyond proud of you. "We're only as sick as our secrets." is something I learned in recovery, and eventually felt as truth. Freedom is on the other side, and you are taking those obstacles and blowing them the fuck up! Not everyone deserves or can be trusted with your secrets, so use wisdom in to whom you divulge them. Happy Holiday Weekend. Love, Virg

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Lou Hudson's avatar

Nothing to feel “shame” about. We ALL have our little secrets that NOBODY will ever, EVER know. Stuff that we will take to our graves - fears, desires, quirks, thoughts that we will NEVER let anyone see, not even the world’s greatest therapist. They’re just TOO private.

Having said that, telling your sister the story - even if it might not be the WHOLE story - took a tremendous amount of courage. We’re all proud as peacocks of you, Megan. Congratulations.

Now come completely clean with us and admit you wrote that at work.

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DIANA ADMIRE's avatar

You are growing leaps and bounds. Therapists have heard it all…. And even if they haven’t they are supposed to be professional enough to help you cope. Believe me, I had a girlfriend who had dealt with so much childhood trama she actually developed 8 personalities. I get this. You are strong, yes. You deserve freedom.

LET IT RING!

Higs, Di.

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kaylen alexandra's avatar

I love reading you got real with your sister. Sisters are amazing. I love mine and have had the REALEST moments of my LYFE with them. Cheers to the next step and next person you share depths with!! Keep going!! ✨🎉🤩🤍

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Jane Deegan's avatar

I'm proud of you. It's not easy. I still struggle with certain areas with that

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Steve Strutt's avatar

Go gently with yourself. You are doing important work for yourself and your daughter.

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Sam Mertens's avatar

Opening up is often the fiber you didn’t know you needed to get things moving.

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